Alibis

from the scrapes and bruises

to the familiar abuses

i'll kick and scream but it never changes anything



and i could spill my guts out

wearing my best little girl pout

and i almost missed it but nobody said this was going to be easy



this is not the man i hoped to be and i'm just trying to stop the bleeding

i don't know how to word it, i just started to deserve it

and all my, all my faces are alibis

and me, i'm half the man i wanted to be



most times it all comes out wrong

i don't know the words but i'll hum along

there's nothing familiar here anymore

to anyone or anything enough to feel alive



and i still taste that sickness

and it makes me crazy without it at best

but i'm in the same place i used to be

but i'm trying harder not to be



this is not the man i hoped to be and i'm just trying to stop the bleeding

i don't know how to word it, i just started to deserve it

and all my, all my faces are alibis

and me, i'm half the man i wanted to be



so what am i

and all my, all my faces are alibis

this is not the man i hoped to be and i'm just trying to stop the bleeding

i don't know how to words go

i just started not to say no



don't want it, don't get it,

i know you won't regret it

don't surface, don't surface,

and i feel so damned worthless

another day is gone and all my faces are alibis

all my faces are alibis



and me, i'm half the man i wanted to be