Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry.

My self-affliction fades.

Stones to throw at my creator.

Masochists to which I cater.



You don't need to bother; I don't need to be.

I'll keep slipping farther,

But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds.



Wish I was too dead to care,

If indeed I cared at all.

Never had a voice to protest,

So you fed me shit to digest.

I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season.

For this, I gave up trying.

One good turn deserves my dying.



You don't need to bother; I don't need to be.

I'll keep slipping farther,

But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds.



Wish I'd died instead of lived.

A zombie hides my face.

Shell forgotten with its memories.

Diaries left with cryptic entries.



And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be. (I don't need to be.)

I'll keep slipping farther,

But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds.



(You.)

You don't need to bother; I don't need to be. (I don't need to be.)

I'll keep slipping farther,

But once I hold on, (once I hold on,)... I'll never live down my deceit.