I Had A Job

once upon a time i had a job

cleaning an office landscape

the lunch and smooking room, the toilets

worked evenings all alone



listened to music, full volume

smoked where I pleased

admired the view

used their telephones, cried

I was so in love with you then



one evening a saw

my friends walk into town

I felt like a spy

no, a guardian

at peace with everything

a bond

because they seemed to have so much fun



it made me so happy

I got sad

or the other way around

I forget

one day I'll be dead

I'll die

my horror, small comfort

the only sure thing

the only sure thing