Caramia

Caramia a blank notebook and a backpocket fade,

you used to mock me sometimes I would cry when I was

home later You hurt my feelings,

why why why, send it down in your notebook my wannabe Harriet the spy

And some say your genius is in your madness will you

get better then will you leave us?

How you mixed with the darkness at such a young age

until in your chemistry science and violence turned silence to rage

Why are you dreaming this, one shoe off and a bridge to cross over

And where is your taxi fare,

are you left by yourself or left by your lover?

For three nights straight now I dream I keep both of

my shoes but I've forgotten my lines and

I've misplace my cues, and there's a sea full of faces

and a show to go on,

and I'm struck mute at entrance with nothing to draw from

There were the secrets the big bang and the bigger joke

You seem to know all of them and injustice makes you red with choke

You love like you're desperate you don't know what love is

I thought if there was one thing I could give you one

thing I could give you, maybe it was this

With your head on the bed board the anguished repeat

the sweat of our sadness the twist of the sheets

I don't want what's best for you, where will I be when you've found it?

I pray a lot about these bad feelings inside but I

can't pray my way through or around it