21 Months

i tried to act as if i cared.

i tried to act as if i didn't want to get out.

i wasn't careful what i asked for and i got it but

i hung on for 21 months. 49 days sitting,

standing, not sleeping and going crazy in a corner.

49 days, my balls turned to brass and i finally won

out. i did 21 months. the 21 strangest months i've

ever lived. i think about all the sick things that

i said, and what i did, and what was done to me and

through it all i grew strong.

made my stand; learned to live. i still live what i learned in 21 months.