Now That I Know

Devendra Banhart · Cripple Crow [2005]

Now that I know

The way it goes

You gotta pay back every penny that you owe



Twelve years old

In your mama's clothes

Shut the blinds and lock up every door



And if you hear

Someone's comin near

Just close your eyes and make them disappear now



Years away

Finds me here today

On my own, always on my way now



So I send my friends

Gifts from where I've been

Something for the hand they're never there to lend



Better keep those eyes

Climbing paradise

And don't pretend you won't reach it in the end now



Dearest dear

I know you been here

Why'd you run tell me why'd you disappear now



That you're not

Here with me

Seems to be the only time that I can see you clearly



I may not know

How to treat or give you what you need

But I am a gentleman who says what he means now



And now I sing

Upon my knees

And praise the kindness of a gentle breeze



I see it swell

Like a story in me to tell

Told years away and past my baby dying



So you raise them up

To heaven always hell

they're unaware, share, give a hand to help son



Oh you give them away

But they'll come back to you someday

Wanna know why nobody was ever there to help them



And no it ain't fair

And if God forbid you care

It's enough to get you in a whole lotta trouble



Oh realize

It ain't wise to idealize

Or put your life in the hands of any struggle



Never renounce

Or ever claim to be

And never buy that freedom just ain't free now



Ella sang

Sifting in the sand

Like a hymn within to help us understand



Heaven awaits

We're making our stand

Glory bound and sparrow in our hand