Eigengrau

If only the dead would stay dead

Instead they haunt me

A stalking shadow

I've seen colors pierce the gray

Felt foreign emotions

Suppressed from the regimen of everyday life

That morning medication

A handful of pills

That takes the daydreaming away

All my bliss fades



My disgusting behavior is human nature

My disgusting behaviors just human nature

Are you dead inside

Are you dead inside

Are you dead inside

I thought so



The words that I speak

Can't match the voice

Stuck inside my head

I always believed there was more

To this experience

A better reason to live that's been silenced

Nevermind the urges

Dictate yourself



My disgusting behavior is human nature

My disgusting behaviors just human nature

My erratic behavior is human nature

My erratic behaviors just human nature

Are you dead inside

Are you dead inside like all my friends

Are you dead inside

Are you dead inside like my friends and I

I thought so



If I sleep I don't stare into gray walls

Anymore

I visualize my fantasies and feelings

Unlike you

I peel off the scales and reel

I see the flesh I long to feel

And limitations and imposition

It wasn't there

It was so free

Like they always say they are and want to be



Are you dead inside

Are you dead inside

Are you dead inside

I thought so

I won't choose to be dead inside

Replicating this sorry life

I won't choose to be dead inside

Replicating this sorry life