Again & Again

It began sometime last week

The feeling that most everything

Was changing for the worse

All the triggers pulled at once

So begins my ugly fall from grace again



I made myself delusional

A noble stab at staying upbeat

But it was only for a while

I tried my best to radiate

Through hurricanes and double eights

The pair split into two



I'm talking points, I'm up on high

Watch me walk the ledge

I am comfortable out here by myself

You could never reach me here



Words distorted in the wind

Landed softly there beneath the trees

Our trip to California

Don't say I didn't try to warn ya



Put down the cell phone and try to be with me

Did you see me disappear?

Like vapor rolling through the hills

And then the silence of your name



I never found the trust I needed from you

Everything you did was making me wonder

My biggest mistake was taking you back

Again and again



I couldn't forgive the things that you did

I'm glad it worked out for you

But you're only foolin' yourself

If you think you won't do it again and again



Sad attempt at poetry

Sad attempt at happiness

The sadness of reality

I'm okay, I've been okay, I stay okay



I took the bullets from the cardboard

Tossed them in my backpack

Placed a set of keys inside the grill

I locked the title to the house

Inside the piano bench

And my lawyers got the will



I never found the trust I needed from you

Everything you did was making me wonder

My biggest mistake was taking you back

Again and again



I couldn't forgive the things that you did

I'm glad it worked out for you

But you're only foolin' yourself

If you think you won't do it again and again