Can't Not

I'd be lying if I said I was completely unscathed

I might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation

Would I be letting you win in my non-reaction? Yeah.

How would I explain?

And how would I explain this to my children if I had them?



Because I can't not, because I can't not

Because I can't afford to be misread one more time



Would I be whining if I said I needed a hug?

Would you feel slighted if I said your love's not enough?

And how can I complain?

And how can I complain when I am the one who reaches for it?



Because I can't not, because I can't not

Because I cannot walk without my crutches

Because I can't not, because I can't not

Because I can't help wonder why you ask me



To all the unheard wisdom in the school yard

You think you're the right ones

You think you're the charmed ones, I'm sure

How can you go on with such conviction?

And who do you think you are?

Why do you question me?



Because we can't not, because we can't not

Because we can't help laugh at under-estimations

Because we can't not, because we can't not

Because we can't afford to be misled one more time



Because we can't not, because we can't not

Because we cannot help without your willingness



(Because we can't not, because we can't not...

Because we can't not, because we can't not...)



Why do you affect me? Why do you affect me still?

Why do you hinder me? Why do you hinder me still?

Why do you unnerve me? Why do you unnerve me still?

Why do you trigger me? Why do you trigger me still?



Because I can't not, because I can't not...