Would Not Come

If I make a lot of tinsel, then people will want to

If I am hardened, no fear of further abandonment

If I am famous, then maybe I'll feel good in this skin

If I am cultured, my words will somehow garner respect



I would throw a party, still it would not come

I would bike, run, swim, and still it would not come

I'd go travelling and still it would not come

I would starve myself and still it would not come



If I am masculine, I will be taken more seriously

If I take a break, it would make me irresponsible, and

If I'm elusive, I will surely be sought after often

If I need assistance, then I must be incapable



I'd be filthy rich and still it would not come

I would seduce them and still it would not come

I would drink Vodka and still it would not come

I'd have an orgasm, still it would not come



If I accumulate knowledge, I'll be impenetrable

If I am aloof, no one will know when they strike a nerve

If I keep my mouth shut, the boat will not have to be rocked

If I am vulnerable, I will be trampled upon



I would go shopping and still it would not come

I'd leave the country and still it would not come

I would scream and rebel, still it would not come

I would stuff my face and still it would not come



I'd be productive and still it would not come

I'd be celebrated, still it would not come

I'd be the hero and still it would not come

I'd renunciate and still it would not come