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Dear Matthew

I like you a lot

I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now

And I respect that

I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future

And you want to come visit me in California, I would be

Open to spending time with you and finding out how old you were

When you wrote your first song.



Dear Jonathan

I liked you too much

I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me

And think solely about themselves

And you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time

I used to say, "The more tragic, the better"

The truth is, whenever I think of the early 90's

Your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday.



Dear Terrance

I love you muchly

You've been nothing but open-hearted and emotionally available

And supportive and...nurturing and consummately there for me

I kept drawing you in

And pushing you away

I remember how beautiful it was to

Fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time

You were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself

What was wrong with me?



Dear Marcus

You rocked my world

You had a charismatic way about you with the women

And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality

And you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass

But I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you though

And that stopped us from going any further than we did

And it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun.



Dear Lou

We learned so much

I realize we won't be able to talk for some time

And I understand that as I do you

The long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could

We were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives

I will always have your back and be curious about you

About your career, your whereabouts.