Petals

I've often wondered if there's

Ever been a perfect family

I've always longed for undividedness

And sought stability



A flower taught me how to pray

But as I grew that flower changed

She started flailing in the wind

Like golden petals scattering



And I miss you dandelion

And even love you

And I wish there was a way

For me to trust you

But it hurts me everytime

I try to touch you

But I miss you dandelion

And even love you



I gravitated towards a patriarch

So young predictably

I was resigned to spend my life

Within a maze of misery



A boy and a girl befriended me

We're bonded through despondency

I stayed so long but finally

I fled to save my sanity



And I miss you little sis and

Little brother

And I hope you realize

I'll always love you

And although you're struggling

You will recover

And I miss you little sis and

Little brother



So many I considered

Closest to me

Turned on a dime and sold me

Out dutifully

Although that knife was chipping

Away at me

They turned their eyes away and

Went home to sleep



And I missed a lot of life

But I'll recover

Though I know you really like

To see me suffer

Still I wish that you and I'd

Forgive each other

'Cause I miss you, Valentine

And really loved you



I really loved you

I tried so hard

But you drove me away

To preserve my sanity

And I found the strength

To break away

Fly...