I Think I'm Going To Kill Myself
Elton John · Honky Chateau
Being part of mankind
There's not a lot to do no more
This race is a waste of time
People rushing everywhere
Swarming around like flies
Think I'll buy a forty four
Give them all a surprise
Think I'm gonna kill myself
Cause a little suicide
Stick around for a couple of days
What a scandal if I died
Yeah I'm gonna kill myself
Get a little headline news
I'd like to see what the papers say
On the state of teenage blues
A rift in my family
I can't use the car
I gotta be in by ten o'clock
Who do they think they are
I'd make an exception
If you want to save my life
Brigitte Bardot gotta come
And see me every night
I Think I'm Going To Kill Myself
Released on the 1973 album Honky Chateau, this track stands as one of Elton John's most emotionally raw and introspective compositions. Written during a period of intense personal turmoil, the song captures the weight of depression and the fear of mortality with striking vulnerability. Unlike many of his contemporaries who focused on romance or social commentary, John delves deep into the psyche, creating a haunting soundscape that blends his signature piano melodies with a brooding, almost operatic vocal delivery. The recording serves as a pivotal moment in his discography, showcasing his ability to translate private anguish into universal art. It remains a staple of his catalog, often cited as a precursor to his later, more dramatic works, and continues to resonate with listeners seeking authentic emotional expression within the rock genre.